someone.. =(

arrgghh.. it is really bugging me now. hurmm. that person that i like for now is going to post something about he's special someone.hurmm. im doubting its he's mom or dad he's reffering this to. hurmm.. =(. and obviously, im doubting its me... hurmm. im really scared now. hurmm.stupid but yeah im scared now. he's going to post something that he dedicates it to whom he called it as he's "very" special someone this weekend. arghh.. i really really wanna read it so badly now. spare me with my curiosity.at least if i feel sad and miserable, it will only happen now. and i dont have to wait until he posts that thing..arghh.

p/s : im bad in waiting.. and curiosity really bites me off my ass~! =(

full of sadness in my life~!

pls dun go~!! im begging you...... y ppl have to come n go just like that.. im sick of feeling this way. feeling sad all the time. Allah mmg wanna test me. wanna noe whether im strong enough or not. im not that strong as u think im. i couldnt bare seeing her go.. she's the closest wan i hve. y her. i just didnt feel the same anymore.. i think im changin to ppl that i dunnoe. to ppl who doesnt hve feelings anymore. every single day i have to face thru the same thing. sometimes, i just wanna let it go. bt when i think about my parents, then only i start to become stronger. its true wat ppl say that " that the only person u can rely on is ur parents n family.frens can just come n go.whether u wan it or not.. it will still happen."