my CNY HOLS

my heart is fill with sadness.. my phone rosak...need to buy a new one.hurmm.. only god knows how sad am i.hurmm.. my dad said buy new one urself.hurmm.. i tot of changing new one after dpt result this sem.hurmm.. but it seems that it wouldnt allow me to do that.hurmm..sdeynye.. and i really ade conflicts with my parents.hurmm. sad as it is.. spjg ari sdey. cant stop crying.hurmm..

new sem...

there are a lot of things that had happened these past few days. firstly, i got my sem 1 results. it was i would say beyond my expectations. i did get good results and i am really grateful for it since i really had done my best on the exam day. so, you guys could really guess how much that i got for my pointer.hehe. so, yesterday was the registration day. i had done so many things and i had try to find so many ways for me to stay in my room, but unfortunately it did not happen. as you all know that i really did not like my last sem room since i had to combine my room with the senior. it is not nice as you guys would expect it to be. i had unstable mood when my exams were around the corner. it really gave me a hard time. in my previous room, that was only 2 asasi science students and 2 seniors. you will know how i felt last sem. my same batch roomate will always leave me alone in the room. i felt lonely to study without her. this is because my senior roomate will not study.so, it was abit frustrating seeing others relax while you were studying your heart out.

this sem i will not make the same mistakes that i had done for last sem. i will be more mature and think of something that will really satisfy me and will not give pressures to me. i want to live a life that is pressureless.. something that will always put a smile on my face. so, i decided to change room for the better. learn to stay with new people.actually, it is not so new people. one of my roomates is my my classmate. so, i can say that i know the things that i suppose to know about her while the other were okie lar. they can really accept me as me. so, i really don't mind staying with them. we're in the same batch. i really hope that i can study well in my new room. Allah please help me to go through this new sem without any obstacles. i really hope i can study well so that i can reach my goal to become a successful dentist in the future. i will definitely put my heart and soul for it until my goals in life has achive.

annoyed~!! irritated~!! u name it~!!

why i feel so annoyed, irritated, irked,vexed~!! u name it..ARGHHHH..

1. i did'nt get my hp yet; they told me that it would be repaired by today, but it didnt~!! it is really on my nerves already.hurmm..
2. i already send my laptop for 1 week but it is still not fixed~!! man, it's really sucks. i feel like i will not buy anything with the brand SONY on it~! hurmm.
3. RESULTS~!! suppose to come out today, but no it DID'NT , i waited the whole day at home.aihh.that's kindda upset me alot.since i can go out and watch 2012.HURMM.. sad..
4. about AUS~!! its really.. hurmm. i dunnoe what to say.sometimes, i feel that i want to go but then, sometimes, i dun feel like it..aihh.. sign..
5. scared for next sem~!! too little time to study but has alot of chapters to learn. and for me, i will be having less time to study if i go to aus.arghhh.. and obviously, my lecturer would think that i'm a spoil brat since 2nd week of classes i skip and pergi oversea plak tue,. bad impression on the 1month of sem. later, it is hard for me to dekat2 with them and to pujuk them about my marks ker.aihh..
   

need to put my mind straight..

i really need to put my mind straight.. huhu. i really need to stop waking up late, in the afternoon. such a waste actually. u should always do something that is beneficial every single day rather than doing something that can increase your weight.huhu. =DD am i right?? so from now on i will always think of something ahead for tomorrow to come. thanks to my cousin who opened my eyes to this. she told me that, if you waste your days doing nothing that could contribute something to someone, or can increase your knowledge, your actually wasting your age of doing nothing. then, it came to me that im doing nothing all this while, and i can't stop the days to go by. so, it showed to me that as the day goes by, im actually getting older. obviously, i don't want to waste my valuable, can't repeat time of doing nothing. you can really see how it goes now right..

so, to all my friends out there, whose having holidays and doing nothing benefial. we should actually set some goals for these holidays that still left so that when others ask us what did we do doing our holidays, we can stand proud to say we've done something beneficial.=D

so, this is my goal to tomorrow that i would like to achieve:

1. wake up early..
2. jogging~!!
3. read novel- it has been ages since i read one.
4. think about our new house wall papers.
5. read newspaper
6. stop eating unhealthy food and alot.

really scared rite now..

if you still remember, i went to melbourne, australia after i had finished up my SPM. hurmm, and now, i might be going to gold coast and sydney. im so scared, that maybe i wouldnt get my result as i expected that it would be. i know, that i can't actually do anything right now. but i am scared. i hope, and i really hope that i would get good results for this sem. you guys don't know how it broke my heart to see my SPM results. Until now, i still can remember the pain..

hangin out wif my best budd~ =DD

we had our lunch after watching
whiteout movie

nj was showing her poker's face. =DD

love ya so mucchhh.. thanks for hanging out with me~! =DD

make me thinking.=(

you always make me thinking, ever since im in form 1 and you in form 2. you always trying to come close to me, waiting for me to come to school on the bench near our school gate. i still remembered the days that you picked up your guitar and played it to me during our conversation on the phone. i still remembered the days, that we looked at each other with a smilling face. the face that i've been longing since then. i still remembered the days, that i will try to peep at your class so that i can have a glance at your face. but then, it changed when you choosed to enter mrsm langkawi. all that change.

after that, we barely talked to each other. when i tried to call you, you were busy. so, after awhile i tried to forget you since it looks like that we really were not meant for each other,you with your own things, and me with mine. it broke my heart ever since that,because i never get the chance to say i love you to you. yes, we do things like other couple would do, but we never declared it. your so caught up trying to get so many girls to notice you until you forgotten that you've opened mine to yours.

when i've moved on, couple with other people, you would called me asking me whether its true. obviously, i would say yes. but the way you asked me, as if i've done something wrong. as if, you're asking me to wait for you. when i asked do you have one? you denied it. so, you made me felt guilty. but then, i still kept on coupling with as many people as i want.

seldomly, you will call me asking me how am i doing. but as i said, seldom. like im not that important to you. as if, im just a friend.

it touched my heart when you called me during my spm. at that time i was studying for my biology paper. i couldn't study. so many things that i needed to read and memorised. i was so stressed out, but you were there for me, giving me advised. you even told me that if i was bored and need someone to talk too, i can always call you.you even played the guitar for me to released my stressed. you were my inspiration. i got 1A for biology paper thanks to you. you really come to me on the right time. =D

after that, we became closed. closer than before, at that time i don't know the secret. but as we chatted through ym. i asked you once more, do you have a girlfriend.. you were silent for awhile. and then you replied. you said yes. but its complicated. i was so heart broken since then. i almost when out with you on that day. but i couldnt since my grandma was sicked at that time, so i needed to rush back to my aunty's house in kl. if not, i will definitely fall for you again. it showed that you and i were really not meant for each other. it really opened my eyes.

but now, this raya you wished me slamat ari rya at the last day of rya. i asked you why now, you said you definitely cant be the first because its already late, and wishing me in the middle would be clince and you prefer to be the last. i was speechless. but he was abit upset since i just said okey. he thought that i will be happy. but then i told him that i will remember it. =(.

am i pathetic? am i overeacting? for god sake, he has already has a girlfriend but he keeps doing something that i find it sweet.maybe as a friend right? who am i kidding, he's my first love. everytime he does something sweet to me, it will make me fall for him. i know that if we are destine to be together it will happen also someday. i will wait for it. but if your really not meant for me i hope i will find a better guy than you. someone who can really touches my heart and understand me. not making me wait for you.