what a month~!! full of misery n sadness ;(

this month i realli learn wat is life act. baru i undertstand dat dlm hidup nie u cant get evrythin dat u want. n bru i understand dat life is not always fair sumtimes. just dat u hve 2 accept it da way it is. kadang2 apa yg kita mintak kita xdpt coz myb ALLAH dh beri rezeki kt kita kat benda lain. n myb ALLAH xbgi kt kta apa yg kita nk coz takut kita akan mnjadi bongkah. tp if u fail doesnt mean u goin 2 fail 4 da rest of ur life. hidup kita xakan berhenti di situ jer. if kita gve up. dat means kita give up on ourselves. it shows dat kita xada faith dlm diri sndri. sbb setiap kesusahan msti ada kesenangan in da future. n plus myb ALLAH baru nk uji kita whether kita nie setia n dpt menerima apa dia bg kt kta. ALLAH itu MAHA ADIL. dia dh wat n susun perjalanan hidup kita dgn baek so dat kita dpt mnjadi lebih matang in da future. n for dat ALLAH. i accept everythin dat u gave me~!!!

bnda yg make me realise dat u cant get evrythin ur way is when i dpt my result spm. i oni dpt 9a's from 11 subjects dat i took. i cant describe 2 u what a bad day it is. i nangis mcm dunia nie nk pecah. i cried mcm my heart goin 2 stop breathin. i cried mcm ibu kehilangan anak dia. n dat time i felt evrythin. i xpernah rsa sesedih 2. bila break up pn xrsa sesedih 2. rsa mcm all my hard work all this while hilang mcm 2. just varnish in da thin air. n afta dpt result 2 i xdpt rsa perasaan apa2 pn. just kesedihan. n a few days afta dat i dh xdpt rsa pape dh. i becomin mre moody. n cpt rsa sdey. pas2 a few days later i went out wif my frens. i liked one of my frens nyer kwan. time nk try talkin 2 him dia plak xlyan i. n i was like devastated sket lar. tp nk wat mcm mna kn.org dh xnk. so, i just hve 2 accept it n let it go lar.n dat time gak.i jdi sdey.it like i cant control my feelings anymre.:( a few days afta dat, my parents plak dtg lmbt amik i dri idi. 2hours late.i was damn sad dat day.tahu lar act bnda 2 bkn sngaja but stil. coz tgh emo lar ktakn. all i can do dat time was cryin. nk rsa mrah pn xleh. da feeling of cpt sdey n kuat nangis ni makin mejadi2. need 2 control it act.aihhh.. i need 2 find sumthin dat will make happy n gedix2 blk. aihh.sumthin or sum1...i need u..wa.merepek lar plak skrg nie.haha.