18th birthday- im oldddd..add more wrinklessss..

these are my presents from my frens. they gave it to me on my birthday. act kitaorg ada lpak outside - jusco, n sunway carnival~!! . snap alot of pixs. but my camera usb ada kt my bro. so, xleh nk upload pix. bt when, dh dpt i upload kay~!!. dun worry peeps, i will update to u things that i've done on my birthday kay. hehe. just wait n c. the theme colour for this year birthday~!! choc~!! except for the cute keychains~!! like the presents ALOT~!! love u guys so muchh.n soie for the names that i didnt mentioned. ;D

special thanks to~~~~

• jawahir for those cute keychains~!! :D
• shikin, ifni for the cutttee teddy~!!. i've always want 1 from my frens.hehe.
• ting,yen and safwan for the bathroom decoration~!! so adorable. ;D
• syafeena for givin me some money to buy the sandle. love the sandle alot~!.haha. ;D

full of sadness in my life~!

pls dun go~!! im begging you...... y ppl have to come n go just like that.. im sick of feeling this way. feeling sad all the time. Allah mmg wanna test me. wanna noe whether im strong enough or not. im not that strong as u think im. i couldnt bare seeing her go.. she's the closest wan i hve. y her. i just didnt feel the same anymore.. i think im changin to ppl that i dunnoe. to ppl who doesnt hve feelings anymore. every single day i have to face thru the same thing. sometimes, i just wanna let it go. bt when i think about my parents, then only i start to become stronger. its true wat ppl say that " that the only person u can rely on is ur parents n family.frens can just come n go.whether u wan it or not.. it will still happen."

bored+stress+homesick

mama, abah... mishing u so muccchhh.. i miss the tasty food, im mish my astro, i mish my room.. i mish everythin at home~!!!

tired of studyin.. need to catch up wif my studies. im so good this weekend xkuar mna2 pun. mama, abah should be proud of me.haha.

btw, mama, abah.. thanks for the line n broadband.. love ya guys so much.. cant wait 2 meet u guys sems break.. tunggu lar kepulangan anak mu ni.hehe

more updates on my life in uitm shah alam,;D

nie aliza but we all call her ally. she's reali fun 2 be wif. funny gla kot. boleh gelak terbahak2 lpak gan dia. ;D. she dpt scholar mara bt she didnt take it.myb she takut she's goin 2 mish us kot.haha. love ya ally. thanks for stayin here. ;)

beside ally and me nie is our lecturer, miss siti hajar. cutekn dia? lecturer bio yg sporting habis. dh lar fun to be wif . summre bila dia ajar dlm kelas mmg bleh pham lar. btw, she's only 22 years old.haha. spa2 nk ngorat tell me.i recommend to her later on.huhu.

haha. nie lar pix time we all tgh tunggu nk msuk klas chemi kt luar lecture hall. ada 1 jer interframe pix nie.haha. guess who?? hurmm..btw, yg pkai bju kurung 2 org 2 are kamilah n quyah or lebih manja dipnggil ququ.hehe. new nick name. we need to find ne nick for kamilah plak.haha.

beside me is athirah. very close to her. kira klu pergi mna2 always wif her. bt then, she dh pndh intect. how sad is that. hurmm. cant do much act. she dpt scholar jpa g ireland. wat dentistry.dh lar dpt course yg i nk.sbar jer.huhu.love ya..

act, this is the best pix. the only pix wif the 5 of us. how sad is that, pasnie xleh nk snap pix 5 ppl dh since tyra pn dh xada kt class. i pn dpt lab partner bru 4 chemi, faatin.huhu. tp xsebest doin lab wif thyra lar..goin 2 mish ya...but we can still meet outside. hehe lpak sma2. ;D

life in uitm shah alam..

okie, let me tell u guys basically what happened to me in uitm shah alam. my roomates ( cam, ain and najah) very nice indeed.hehe. i kindda can get along with them. im stuck in class m. fyi, thats the last class.hehe. few frens of mine in class m are athirah, quyah, aliza, and kamilah. they are so friendly. they are so cool, funny and daaammnnn noisssyyy~!!haha. actually, in class im the talkative wan. always talk non-stop. but during lecture i will hear and let the lecturer do all the talking.haha. the four of us are kindda noisy gila until maybe ada people envy us. but for my tutorial class. what can i say. i dont really like the class. coz most of my friends are in tutorial 1 and im stuck in tutorial 2. aihh. maybe there's something hidden behind it.hurmm. its not fair actually. aihh. i always need to walk alone for tutorial and lab. hurmm. self pity actually.but what to do. i asked my maths lecturer, she let me join tutorial class for group 1. hurmm. at least i got to change 1 subject to tutorial group 1.im goin to try to change for other tutorials and labs. i hope i can change all of them.hehe.

missing everyone..even though u guys r not always at my side.

i left two days more until i enter uitm shah alam for asasi sains. today, after i took my pics from kodak. i put it in one album that i bought it personally for me to take it to uitm as memories of my family and beloved friends. as i glared through the pics i was beginning to feel like crying. i felt that my eyes was fulled with tears. but i couldnt cry because even though, i cry it wouldnt change anything. as i flip through the album i saw our pics. hehe. time my friends and i went to genting. wow,when u looked into the pics, i could see that all of us was having so much fun there.hehe. but i cannot repeat that moments if i want to. just that we can do another trip or reunion to other places. it would be nice dont u think so. it would be fun if we can spend some on an island.haha. it would be a great reunion.hehe. then, i saw few picx of my family in indonesia and my picx in australia.aihh. u guys couldnt imagine how much i love australia. such a lovely place. the scenery was a sight to behold. the people was amazing. but during the time i was in aus i counted my days there. hehe. since, it was the first time i was far apart from my parents. but i learnt so many things from my experience there. now, im going to count my days to uitm. hehe. feel like im growing up. and i feel it like it is too fast. but, i couldnt stop it. it will keep continue. but one thing for sure, i will be missing all of u. it is hard to find someone out there that u can trust like i trust all of my family and my friends. but i need to learn that. i really hope everything is going to be fine. i'll be there alone i guess with no one that i know of. i will survive there. dont u guys worry. im a big gal. i could handle it if i put my mind to it.hehe. u'll be seeing me in the library more often later on.haha.

p/s: i love u guys so much. thanks for supporting me and being my friend all this while. i love u guys with all my heart. every moments we had together, i'll cheerish it. coz i noe that i couldnt find other friends like u guys. u guys are the apple of my eye.

thinking~!!

yest, my grandma wat lar kenduri doa selamat sket for me yg nk g asasi sains uitm kat shah alam. pas2 wat sekali kenduri utk dia. mntak supaya she cpt sihat lar. she kn sakit. dia ada diabetes. so, kna wat dialysis n all. and recently, dia kna cut her vein on her right arm. pity her.sakit kot. smpai darah tue dripping and all. so, mntak supaya she cpt shat lar,. xyah nk susah2 cut her vein and all lgi. pas2, tiba2 blk umah mlm tue. i trpk whether i reali do wan to do dentistry. suddenly, out of nowhere. tiba2 jer. rsa mcm maybe i'll accept the petronas scholarship for business. i xtahu lar. whether i can cope gan asasi tue.takut pn takut. i takut im not that strong as i think i am. tp my parents kta lebih baek wat asasi for dentistry.hurmm. dia kta they prefer me to take profesional course. coz lepas ni ada keja n all. kuar2 dh ada keja. mcm mna ek? do i reali wanna do this. all my life, act i xtahu wat i should be. coz i rsa mcm im not that strong to handle it.but my parents think that i can. i xnk for my whole life i kja just to please my parents. mcm mna ek? im reali wonder lar. how, ppl can noe what they wanna do. im reali confuse rite now. hurmm. bcoz for me i will like to take something yg i can think out of the box. i ska wat business act. but i xberani ambik that risiko. coz takut lpas graduate i xada job nnti. pas2 kna mrah gan my parents. they said, why skrg tiba2 nk change my mind. and i was like ntah lar. suddently, i trpk that way.aihh.. i hope ALLAH bukakkn my mind to accept the fact that i should be a dentist.aihh.