new sem...

there are a lot of things that had happened these past few days. firstly, i got my sem 1 results. it was i would say beyond my expectations. i did get good results and i am really grateful for it since i really had done my best on the exam day. so, you guys could really guess how much that i got for my pointer.hehe. so, yesterday was the registration day. i had done so many things and i had try to find so many ways for me to stay in my room, but unfortunately it did not happen. as you all know that i really did not like my last sem room since i had to combine my room with the senior. it is not nice as you guys would expect it to be. i had unstable mood when my exams were around the corner. it really gave me a hard time. in my previous room, that was only 2 asasi science students and 2 seniors. you will know how i felt last sem. my same batch roomate will always leave me alone in the room. i felt lonely to study without her. this is because my senior roomate will not study.so, it was abit frustrating seeing others relax while you were studying your heart out.

this sem i will not make the same mistakes that i had done for last sem. i will be more mature and think of something that will really satisfy me and will not give pressures to me. i want to live a life that is pressureless.. something that will always put a smile on my face. so, i decided to change room for the better. learn to stay with new people.actually, it is not so new people. one of my roomates is my my classmate. so, i can say that i know the things that i suppose to know about her while the other were okie lar. they can really accept me as me. so, i really don't mind staying with them. we're in the same batch. i really hope that i can study well in my new room. Allah please help me to go through this new sem without any obstacles. i really hope i can study well so that i can reach my goal to become a successful dentist in the future. i will definitely put my heart and soul for it until my goals in life has achive.

annoyed~!! irritated~!! u name it~!!

why i feel so annoyed, irritated, irked,vexed~!! u name it..ARGHHHH..

1. i did'nt get my hp yet; they told me that it would be repaired by today, but it didnt~!! it is really on my nerves already.hurmm..
2. i already send my laptop for 1 week but it is still not fixed~!! man, it's really sucks. i feel like i will not buy anything with the brand SONY on it~! hurmm.
3. RESULTS~!! suppose to come out today, but no it DID'NT , i waited the whole day at home.aihh.that's kindda upset me alot.since i can go out and watch 2012.HURMM.. sad..
4. about AUS~!! its really.. hurmm. i dunnoe what to say.sometimes, i feel that i want to go but then, sometimes, i dun feel like it..aihh.. sign..
5. scared for next sem~!! too little time to study but has alot of chapters to learn. and for me, i will be having less time to study if i go to aus.arghhh.. and obviously, my lecturer would think that i'm a spoil brat since 2nd week of classes i skip and pergi oversea plak tue,. bad impression on the 1month of sem. later, it is hard for me to dekat2 with them and to pujuk them about my marks ker.aihh..
   

need to put my mind straight..

i really need to put my mind straight.. huhu. i really need to stop waking up late, in the afternoon. such a waste actually. u should always do something that is beneficial every single day rather than doing something that can increase your weight.huhu. =DD am i right?? so from now on i will always think of something ahead for tomorrow to come. thanks to my cousin who opened my eyes to this. she told me that, if you waste your days doing nothing that could contribute something to someone, or can increase your knowledge, your actually wasting your age of doing nothing. then, it came to me that im doing nothing all this while, and i can't stop the days to go by. so, it showed to me that as the day goes by, im actually getting older. obviously, i don't want to waste my valuable, can't repeat time of doing nothing. you can really see how it goes now right..

so, to all my friends out there, whose having holidays and doing nothing benefial. we should actually set some goals for these holidays that still left so that when others ask us what did we do doing our holidays, we can stand proud to say we've done something beneficial.=D

so, this is my goal to tomorrow that i would like to achieve:

1. wake up early..
2. jogging~!!
3. read novel- it has been ages since i read one.
4. think about our new house wall papers.
5. read newspaper
6. stop eating unhealthy food and alot.

really scared rite now..

if you still remember, i went to melbourne, australia after i had finished up my SPM. hurmm, and now, i might be going to gold coast and sydney. im so scared, that maybe i wouldnt get my result as i expected that it would be. i know, that i can't actually do anything right now. but i am scared. i hope, and i really hope that i would get good results for this sem. you guys don't know how it broke my heart to see my SPM results. Until now, i still can remember the pain..

hangin out wif my best budd~ =DD

we had our lunch after watching
whiteout movie

nj was showing her poker's face. =DD

love ya so mucchhh.. thanks for hanging out with me~! =DD

make me thinking.=(

you always make me thinking, ever since im in form 1 and you in form 2. you always trying to come close to me, waiting for me to come to school on the bench near our school gate. i still remembered the days that you picked up your guitar and played it to me during our conversation on the phone. i still remembered the days, that we looked at each other with a smilling face. the face that i've been longing since then. i still remembered the days, that i will try to peep at your class so that i can have a glance at your face. but then, it changed when you choosed to enter mrsm langkawi. all that change.

after that, we barely talked to each other. when i tried to call you, you were busy. so, after awhile i tried to forget you since it looks like that we really were not meant for each other,you with your own things, and me with mine. it broke my heart ever since that,because i never get the chance to say i love you to you. yes, we do things like other couple would do, but we never declared it. your so caught up trying to get so many girls to notice you until you forgotten that you've opened mine to yours.

when i've moved on, couple with other people, you would called me asking me whether its true. obviously, i would say yes. but the way you asked me, as if i've done something wrong. as if, you're asking me to wait for you. when i asked do you have one? you denied it. so, you made me felt guilty. but then, i still kept on coupling with as many people as i want.

seldomly, you will call me asking me how am i doing. but as i said, seldom. like im not that important to you. as if, im just a friend.

it touched my heart when you called me during my spm. at that time i was studying for my biology paper. i couldn't study. so many things that i needed to read and memorised. i was so stressed out, but you were there for me, giving me advised. you even told me that if i was bored and need someone to talk too, i can always call you.you even played the guitar for me to released my stressed. you were my inspiration. i got 1A for biology paper thanks to you. you really come to me on the right time. =D

after that, we became closed. closer than before, at that time i don't know the secret. but as we chatted through ym. i asked you once more, do you have a girlfriend.. you were silent for awhile. and then you replied. you said yes. but its complicated. i was so heart broken since then. i almost when out with you on that day. but i couldnt since my grandma was sicked at that time, so i needed to rush back to my aunty's house in kl. if not, i will definitely fall for you again. it showed that you and i were really not meant for each other. it really opened my eyes.

but now, this raya you wished me slamat ari rya at the last day of rya. i asked you why now, you said you definitely cant be the first because its already late, and wishing me in the middle would be clince and you prefer to be the last. i was speechless. but he was abit upset since i just said okey. he thought that i will be happy. but then i told him that i will remember it. =(.

am i pathetic? am i overeacting? for god sake, he has already has a girlfriend but he keeps doing something that i find it sweet.maybe as a friend right? who am i kidding, he's my first love. everytime he does something sweet to me, it will make me fall for him. i know that if we are destine to be together it will happen also someday. i will wait for it. but if your really not meant for me i hope i will find a better guy than you. someone who can really touches my heart and understand me. not making me wait for you.

lost in my own world~ =)

i don't know what i've been thinking lately, but ever since i entered uitm, shah alam. i've been so depressed since so many thing that had happened to me but now,i've grown up. things are getting better. im trying to be as much as positive as i could. for me, leaving in other place, really makes me more mature. so, as for now,im happy with the way i am. but im trying to be the better person that i could in the future. =D

afta test~!!

time kitaog kt ktm. abit embarrass since kitaorg mcm perak naik ktm.haha.

almost slah train. xreti bca sign board.haha. ;DD


boring2. snap pix dlu. sblum smpai ktm kitaorg naik buses n taxi. pnat gile~!

me n quyah( ququ) :DD

kamilah, mua, n ququ. +_+

huhu, soie dh lma xupdate. n yg nie kitaorg kuar afta finish up all our tests for this sem. damn~! how fast the time flies.. and now, im just waiting for my final. huhu. actually, im not waiting for it. aihh.. so, sad lar. this raya i cannot enjoy it to the fullest. ;((( i hope lmbt sket raya.huhu. so, dat lmbt sket for me to take my finals. hee... back to the story, we went to sunway pyramid by using buses, taxi and ktm.haha. xprnh in my whole life g shoppin mall using so many public transport.reached there smua mcm nk pengsan. bt then, afta lookin at the clothes, shoes, handbags smua segar bugar blik.haha. sengal gila. ;DD. we reached back uitm at 12am. haha. i couldnt tell my parents. if they know, surely they will kill me. huhu. notty nabila duk shah alam. alahai, bkn slalu.heee..

raya?? :((((

hurmm, raya?? i hate this raya. i dun get to choose my baju raya coz got no time for that. i hate that baju raya so muchhh... i dun get to raya wif my aunt, uncle, my kazens~!! i hate final exam after raya. hurmm. i reali dun look forward for this raya at all.. surely not nice wan. need to study. plus, need to wear the baju rya that i hate. aihh. wat is raya act lik this. hurmm. ;(

updating things that i did on my birthday. ;D

read this post from down to up kay~!! huhu. sorryy for the inconvenient. :D

syafeena pn ada.haha. kesian dia. asked her to come jusco early kot.dh lar dia xtau jln.haha.kesian tul.huhu. bt thanks coz dtg to clbrate my birthday~!!.hehe..ktaorg mkn kedai siam.xigt nma kdai tue.huhu.coz shikin nk sgt mkn ikan apa ntah.lpa plak.ala, ikan yg slalu ada kt kdai2 siam tue.haha. pas2, i nk mkn tom yam.huhu.sdap kot.huhu. yummyy. full mkn kt c2.huhu.pas2, ktaorg headed to shikin's hse. sent her bck home. then, went to sunway~!! wohoo.tgk pelham 123 gn diaorg n mak syafeena skali.mak dia sporting gla kot.bt pity her mom n her coz kna blk awl. pas2, went to fetched my mom.hehe. tgk2 my mom kt kpj bm.aihh. i dh lar dunnoe the direction.haha.end up,pgi blk ker jusco bli BIGG APPLLE~!! huhu. ting n jwa bli secret recipe~!! mkn2 while waiting 4 my mom to arrive.after she arrived we headed home~!!. tp byk present kot~!!hehe. ;D.thanks u guys~!! love u guys so mucchh~!! huggsss nn kisssesss~!!

time kt toilet gan nj~!! wah.. i reallii reallli mishhh her alott~~!! liyana too.aihh.slalu dpt hang out skali. even though kta jauh wif each other, tp we stil love each other n besties 4 ever. ;D. bt this time, liyana xcuti, so, xleh nk lpak skali.aihh~!! too bad..


















time ambik shikin~!! jmpa diaorg time cuti jer.aihh. xbest tul. even though, dkt gan shikin. bt then, stil xsmpat nk jmpa. study asasi nie tiring n u dun hve time 4 urself.kna catch up byk kot.aihh. xper lar.just 1year. kna make full of it lar~!! coz akn tntukn whether im takin medic or dentistry.huhu. :D



















okie, after mkn kt subaidah,pergi kt keta. tgk2 keta kna tahi burung~!! gross gila~!!! dh ar byk.klu sket lain ar cter. sbar jer~!! pas2, g umah shikin. had to fetch her plak.huhu.birthday gal kna fetch gan rmai org. aihh.birthday gal jdi driver.ish2.. pity me..wa.. hehe.xada arr. im so glad diaorg leh kuar. klu xclbrate sorang ar.aihh. sbar jer. ;) love them sooo muccchh.. pas2, pnjam paip kt umah shikin.haha. cuci my mom's car dlu.karang bising plak dia~!!.huhu.






















i woke up early .haha. birthday gal lar katakn.haha.no lar. not so rjin.huhu. woke up early coz kna send my mom to her work place.b4 dat, i fetched ting 1st.haha. i fetched her at 7.30am.haha. early kn?huhu. she kna wake up early bcoz of me.haha. after sent my mom, go fetched jawahir~!!.wohoo.kesian dia. janji at 9, bt i fetched her at 8.15.huhu.kjam i on my birthday.huhu. pas2, bwk diaorg g subaidah.breakfast sma2.huhu.lma dh xwat mcm tue. n ktaorg mkn byk gila kot~!!.kta nk diet.sbar jer.aihh.. ;D

18th birthday- im oldddd..add more wrinklessss..

these are my presents from my frens. they gave it to me on my birthday. act kitaorg ada lpak outside - jusco, n sunway carnival~!! . snap alot of pixs. but my camera usb ada kt my bro. so, xleh nk upload pix. bt when, dh dpt i upload kay~!!. dun worry peeps, i will update to u things that i've done on my birthday kay. hehe. just wait n c. the theme colour for this year birthday~!! choc~!! except for the cute keychains~!! like the presents ALOT~!! love u guys so muchh.n soie for the names that i didnt mentioned. ;D

special thanks to~~~~

• jawahir for those cute keychains~!! :D
• shikin, ifni for the cutttee teddy~!!. i've always want 1 from my frens.hehe.
• ting,yen and safwan for the bathroom decoration~!! so adorable. ;D
• syafeena for givin me some money to buy the sandle. love the sandle alot~!.haha. ;D

full of sadness in my life~!

pls dun go~!! im begging you...... y ppl have to come n go just like that.. im sick of feeling this way. feeling sad all the time. Allah mmg wanna test me. wanna noe whether im strong enough or not. im not that strong as u think im. i couldnt bare seeing her go.. she's the closest wan i hve. y her. i just didnt feel the same anymore.. i think im changin to ppl that i dunnoe. to ppl who doesnt hve feelings anymore. every single day i have to face thru the same thing. sometimes, i just wanna let it go. bt when i think about my parents, then only i start to become stronger. its true wat ppl say that " that the only person u can rely on is ur parents n family.frens can just come n go.whether u wan it or not.. it will still happen."

bored+stress+homesick

mama, abah... mishing u so muccchhh.. i miss the tasty food, im mish my astro, i mish my room.. i mish everythin at home~!!!

tired of studyin.. need to catch up wif my studies. im so good this weekend xkuar mna2 pun. mama, abah should be proud of me.haha.

btw, mama, abah.. thanks for the line n broadband.. love ya guys so much.. cant wait 2 meet u guys sems break.. tunggu lar kepulangan anak mu ni.hehe

more updates on my life in uitm shah alam,;D

nie aliza but we all call her ally. she's reali fun 2 be wif. funny gla kot. boleh gelak terbahak2 lpak gan dia. ;D. she dpt scholar mara bt she didnt take it.myb she takut she's goin 2 mish us kot.haha. love ya ally. thanks for stayin here. ;)

beside ally and me nie is our lecturer, miss siti hajar. cutekn dia? lecturer bio yg sporting habis. dh lar fun to be wif . summre bila dia ajar dlm kelas mmg bleh pham lar. btw, she's only 22 years old.haha. spa2 nk ngorat tell me.i recommend to her later on.huhu.

haha. nie lar pix time we all tgh tunggu nk msuk klas chemi kt luar lecture hall. ada 1 jer interframe pix nie.haha. guess who?? hurmm..btw, yg pkai bju kurung 2 org 2 are kamilah n quyah or lebih manja dipnggil ququ.hehe. new nick name. we need to find ne nick for kamilah plak.haha.

beside me is athirah. very close to her. kira klu pergi mna2 always wif her. bt then, she dh pndh intect. how sad is that. hurmm. cant do much act. she dpt scholar jpa g ireland. wat dentistry.dh lar dpt course yg i nk.sbar jer.huhu.love ya..

act, this is the best pix. the only pix wif the 5 of us. how sad is that, pasnie xleh nk snap pix 5 ppl dh since tyra pn dh xada kt class. i pn dpt lab partner bru 4 chemi, faatin.huhu. tp xsebest doin lab wif thyra lar..goin 2 mish ya...but we can still meet outside. hehe lpak sma2. ;D

life in uitm shah alam..

okie, let me tell u guys basically what happened to me in uitm shah alam. my roomates ( cam, ain and najah) very nice indeed.hehe. i kindda can get along with them. im stuck in class m. fyi, thats the last class.hehe. few frens of mine in class m are athirah, quyah, aliza, and kamilah. they are so friendly. they are so cool, funny and daaammnnn noisssyyy~!!haha. actually, in class im the talkative wan. always talk non-stop. but during lecture i will hear and let the lecturer do all the talking.haha. the four of us are kindda noisy gila until maybe ada people envy us. but for my tutorial class. what can i say. i dont really like the class. coz most of my friends are in tutorial 1 and im stuck in tutorial 2. aihh. maybe there's something hidden behind it.hurmm. its not fair actually. aihh. i always need to walk alone for tutorial and lab. hurmm. self pity actually.but what to do. i asked my maths lecturer, she let me join tutorial class for group 1. hurmm. at least i got to change 1 subject to tutorial group 1.im goin to try to change for other tutorials and labs. i hope i can change all of them.hehe.

missing everyone..even though u guys r not always at my side.

i left two days more until i enter uitm shah alam for asasi sains. today, after i took my pics from kodak. i put it in one album that i bought it personally for me to take it to uitm as memories of my family and beloved friends. as i glared through the pics i was beginning to feel like crying. i felt that my eyes was fulled with tears. but i couldnt cry because even though, i cry it wouldnt change anything. as i flip through the album i saw our pics. hehe. time my friends and i went to genting. wow,when u looked into the pics, i could see that all of us was having so much fun there.hehe. but i cannot repeat that moments if i want to. just that we can do another trip or reunion to other places. it would be nice dont u think so. it would be fun if we can spend some on an island.haha. it would be a great reunion.hehe. then, i saw few picx of my family in indonesia and my picx in australia.aihh. u guys couldnt imagine how much i love australia. such a lovely place. the scenery was a sight to behold. the people was amazing. but during the time i was in aus i counted my days there. hehe. since, it was the first time i was far apart from my parents. but i learnt so many things from my experience there. now, im going to count my days to uitm. hehe. feel like im growing up. and i feel it like it is too fast. but, i couldnt stop it. it will keep continue. but one thing for sure, i will be missing all of u. it is hard to find someone out there that u can trust like i trust all of my family and my friends. but i need to learn that. i really hope everything is going to be fine. i'll be there alone i guess with no one that i know of. i will survive there. dont u guys worry. im a big gal. i could handle it if i put my mind to it.hehe. u'll be seeing me in the library more often later on.haha.

p/s: i love u guys so much. thanks for supporting me and being my friend all this while. i love u guys with all my heart. every moments we had together, i'll cheerish it. coz i noe that i couldnt find other friends like u guys. u guys are the apple of my eye.

thinking~!!

yest, my grandma wat lar kenduri doa selamat sket for me yg nk g asasi sains uitm kat shah alam. pas2 wat sekali kenduri utk dia. mntak supaya she cpt sihat lar. she kn sakit. dia ada diabetes. so, kna wat dialysis n all. and recently, dia kna cut her vein on her right arm. pity her.sakit kot. smpai darah tue dripping and all. so, mntak supaya she cpt shat lar,. xyah nk susah2 cut her vein and all lgi. pas2, tiba2 blk umah mlm tue. i trpk whether i reali do wan to do dentistry. suddenly, out of nowhere. tiba2 jer. rsa mcm maybe i'll accept the petronas scholarship for business. i xtahu lar. whether i can cope gan asasi tue.takut pn takut. i takut im not that strong as i think i am. tp my parents kta lebih baek wat asasi for dentistry.hurmm. dia kta they prefer me to take profesional course. coz lepas ni ada keja n all. kuar2 dh ada keja. mcm mna ek? do i reali wanna do this. all my life, act i xtahu wat i should be. coz i rsa mcm im not that strong to handle it.but my parents think that i can. i xnk for my whole life i kja just to please my parents. mcm mna ek? im reali wonder lar. how, ppl can noe what they wanna do. im reali confuse rite now. hurmm. bcoz for me i will like to take something yg i can think out of the box. i ska wat business act. but i xberani ambik that risiko. coz takut lpas graduate i xada job nnti. pas2 kna mrah gan my parents. they said, why skrg tiba2 nk change my mind. and i was like ntah lar. suddently, i trpk that way.aihh.. i hope ALLAH bukakkn my mind to accept the fact that i should be a dentist.aihh.

so many things that i need to be prepared of.wa.. TENSION~!

Tension tul. dulu masa nk msuk matriks pnya lar excited.pas2 now, bila i need to prepare all those stuffs that i will be needed later on.rsa mcm tension plak. need to go shopping. and its kindda need alot of money.aihh. aku plg benci mintak duit.n reali pity my parents bila kna kuar duit. and plg pity is that nowan will be at home. except for both of them only. since my only and sayang bro ada kt mrsm taiping. so, mesti diaorg boring duk umah sendri. pityful.=(.xper if i got time i blk slalu.hehe. if i can.dh lar duduk kt hulu.PERLIS plak tue.haha. but now, im stil waitin for upu. mna tahu if i can get.if im lucky enough lar. skrgkn org pndai2. so, need to compete n stuff. aihh. tension tul. but i will pray to ALLAH that if anything happen pn. if i di hantar ke mna2 tmpt pn. xper. AS LONG AS I CAN CATCH UP WITH ALL MY STUDIES. and I REALLI HOPE I CAN BE A DENTIST. A SUCCESSFUL WAN.

ding dong~!! =)

Between Us

Somewhere and somehow i could feel you,

trying to make me fall for you,

but i cant accept that fact,

coz i know in my heart,

we can only be friends,

friends until the end,

but i know that maybe you cant accept that fact

im scared that one day you will leave me for another gal,

even though i cant say it out loud,

but deep inside there's sumthin special about you,

that i cant describe it,

so, for now i think we should just stay as friends

coz i believe that love as a friend is

more lasting and

i hope that you will understand the situation,

between us.

he's just not that into you~!!

here is some tips for the gals out there that are searching for the right guy~!!

here is some review and tips that i get by watching the latest movie, he's just not that into you~!

he's just not that into you~!!

1. 
   
   if you went out with him on a date and after a few days after that he didnt call you.that means he's reali not into you. so, for the gals out there just forget about the guy that didnt call u back after the 1st date. its not worth it if you wait for him~!!


2. 
   
   if you meet a new guy and the guy did ask for your number and he gives he's number too to you but he didnt let you know when he's going to call.( that means he's reali just being polite by taking ur number because he just don't want to let you down. so, basically just forget about this dude~! coz he wouldnt call u back.~!!)


3. 
   
   if he's done something wrong or something that you realli hate such as smoking., even though he knew that your dad died due to the lung cancer.( that means he's totally not for you because he's doesn't seem to care about your feelings.)


4. 
   
   if he cheated on you with another gal, and he offers himself to move out. (that means he's realli not into you anymore because he's trying to get out from you.)

how to know whether the guy is into you??!!

1. 
   
   he calls you after your 1st date and say something like he had some wonderful time with you on your 1st date. ( he's totally into u babe~!! haha so, better keep your mind alert because maybe he will asks you for another date..=)


2. 
   
   if he picks up your call even though he's with another gal. ( that could be a sign of he's into you~!! so, you better watch out. maybe you will see some flowers at infront of your house~!!=)


3. 
   
   if he asks you for another date after your 1st date( he likes u babe~!! your in his lists.hehe)


4. 
   
   if he listens to your problems and gives you some good advise ( he's falling for you~! but there could be just a sign of friends. so, you reali need more signs than this one.


5. 
   
   the most important thing is that he calls you when you didnt get back to him after you said you will call him back later on. it shows that he's reali reali reali into you when he come to your house instead if you didnt get back to him ( he's just worry about you and that means he's reali fallen in love with you~!! how sweet is that right.hehe.)

so, here is some guide lines for the gals out there is searching for MR RIGHT. if they reali do exist.haha. so, gudluck with that kay~!! =) and
please leave your comments after reading this kay~!!.

im going to wait for u~!!

do u ever believe in love at the first sight? i used not to, dlu. but then after i saw him and we had some wonderful conversations then i started to believe in love at the first sight. all of this happened during educamp petronas. mula2 i mcm xnk pgi lar. coz im so not good in mingling wif others but then since nisha oso pgi. so, i was like just give it a shot lar and plus i wanna hve fun gan nisha. cuci mata tgk cute guys.haha. as usual.haha. pas2, dat saturday nite, 11th april estimated 10.30pm. a cute guy nama MOHD HAFIZ from Johor approached me. the first question he asked me was 'boleh wat xexam maths tdi?' . and then, we started to talk non-stop. we laughed at each others jokes. he told me about himself. asking me what course did i apply for the interview and stuffs. and asking me how long have i been wearing the braces. at that time, bus drivers semua suruh naik bus but then dia xnk. he mcm insisted in talking to me since i told him that i was waiting for hanisha to finish up her science and maths test. we talked kindda long until we can get along really well with each other. and at that time he trpaksa naik the bus coz scared xada bus dh for him later on. then, he said jumpa lgi esk. and i was like okie c u tomorrow. then, he came back and said that if we xjmpa tomorrow, dia wanna wish me gudluck 4 da interview. and i just said same u too~!! how stupid am i? and then, i just pusing belakang and walked away~!! another stupid move~!! wa.. and im so regretting it now.... and paling bodoh sekali is that i didnt ask for his no. aihh.. now, im regretting every minute of it. every day after that day i keep on thinking about him. about our conversations. and somehow that i feel that we are meant for each other. and every day afta that day i wish that i could repeat back that moment when he approach me asking me how was the test... but i noe it wouldnt happen again. and it is just some fake hope.. im going to remember this moment for eva

Im goin to wait for u~!

thanks nisha for bringing me out~!!wohoo~!(:

okie,basically today actually i don't have any plans.but then,around 11.ooam,nisha called me and asked me to go out with her.and at that time i was not prepared yet.since i was still on my bed. sleeping.so, u get the picture that i just only woke up when nisha called me.haha.what to do.its holiday time what.but,if nisha didnt call me and ask me out surely i'll be in bed snoozzing back to sleep. so, back to my story, nisha and i reached sunway around 12.00 at noon. btw, nisha drove us there.hehe.me and nisha alone.when my mum knew about that, she called me right away just to ask whether we safely reach.and asked nisha not to drive to fast.haha.mom~!!.what to do.they always like that.hehe.then, we booked our tickets.the confessions of a shopaholic.after that, we had our lunch at kopitiam junction since i didnt take any breakfast yet.i was starving at that time.hehe.nearly finished up the food.the food was in a big portion.so, u get the picture.that i was fulled like hell.hehe.(:.. after that, we walked around the mall until 1.30pm (the movie started at that time) the cinema was well.totally peopless.haha.if ada lar that word.haha.a few people only watched the movie,not even 10 people~!! we kind of lucky because there was a few people there. the movie was damn awesome~!! cool like hell.if i can rate it.i'll give it 10 over 10.hehe.damn nice.full of love, sadness, romantic, angry, and it was very funny indeed.hehe.to all people out there.please do watch the show ~!!.haha promoting the show plak. the producer should pay me for this.haha.:)

feeling active n kindda happy today~!! all of these for my lovely teachers.

today,i woke at 10am as usual.hehe.around 12.30 i followed my dad to his bakery.then,i xtahu y today my angin kira okie lar.so, i've decided to give a hand to kakak2 yg kerja kt my dad's bakery.so, time icing the cake i pun ngada2 lar nk icing skali.haha.borink if pegi ther doin nothin act.so,tolong2 lar sket. i main icing jer.i didnt tink oso wat to do act. i just do it without thinkin.hehe.pas2 end up 2 be like da cake in da pix.hehe.cute x

haha.mcm bdk2 btul.

pas2 tiba2 jer im thinkin of bakin cup cakes 4 da teachers at skwl.mmg time nk ambik result igt nk bake them cup cakes.tp xjdi. nsib baek xbg on dat day.dah lar i nangis like hell. nk bg cup cake lgi on dat day?haha.sure xjdnya lar.nnti end up i antar blk cup cakes 2 kt dad's bakery.btw, since i ada mood so baked them lar. myb can even promote my dad's bakery.haha.mna lar tahu kn. so, i baked around 48cakes. tp bg teacher 40jer,since my grandma.owh.lupa nk mention her nme.dia pn ada gak ari2.sibuk2 ajk i g bakery. as usual bila i wanted 2 bake the cup cakes.surely my grandma nk gaknya.so,i gave her 8cup cakes.n the rest bg kt my teachers.




i realli hope the teachers will like it.hehe.i've baked the cup cakes wif full of love n sincerity. i want them to know that i realli do appreciate all the things that they had done for me. love them so much..:).feel like crying plak.wa.. sdey tul that im not going to be in the school anymore.hurmm.;(

what a month~!! full of misery n sadness ;(

this month i realli learn wat is life act. baru i undertstand dat dlm hidup nie u cant get evrythin dat u want. n bru i understand dat life is not always fair sumtimes. just dat u hve 2 accept it da way it is. kadang2 apa yg kita mintak kita xdpt coz myb ALLAH dh beri rezeki kt kita kat benda lain. n myb ALLAH xbgi kt kta apa yg kita nk coz takut kita akan mnjadi bongkah. tp if u fail doesnt mean u goin 2 fail 4 da rest of ur life. hidup kita xakan berhenti di situ jer. if kita gve up. dat means kita give up on ourselves. it shows dat kita xada faith dlm diri sndri. sbb setiap kesusahan msti ada kesenangan in da future. n plus myb ALLAH baru nk uji kita whether kita nie setia n dpt menerima apa dia bg kt kta. ALLAH itu MAHA ADIL. dia dh wat n susun perjalanan hidup kita dgn baek so dat kita dpt mnjadi lebih matang in da future. n for dat ALLAH. i accept everythin dat u gave me~!!!

bnda yg make me realise dat u cant get evrythin ur way is when i dpt my result spm. i oni dpt 9a's from 11 subjects dat i took. i cant describe 2 u what a bad day it is. i nangis mcm dunia nie nk pecah. i cried mcm my heart goin 2 stop breathin. i cried mcm ibu kehilangan anak dia. n dat time i felt evrythin. i xpernah rsa sesedih 2. bila break up pn xrsa sesedih 2. rsa mcm all my hard work all this while hilang mcm 2. just varnish in da thin air. n afta dpt result 2 i xdpt rsa perasaan apa2 pn. just kesedihan. n a few days afta dat i dh xdpt rsa pape dh. i becomin mre moody. n cpt rsa sdey. pas2 a few days later i went out wif my frens. i liked one of my frens nyer kwan. time nk try talkin 2 him dia plak xlyan i. n i was like devastated sket lar. tp nk wat mcm mna kn.org dh xnk. so, i just hve 2 accept it n let it go lar.n dat time gak.i jdi sdey.it like i cant control my feelings anymre.:( a few days afta dat, my parents plak dtg lmbt amik i dri idi. 2hours late.i was damn sad dat day.tahu lar act bnda 2 bkn sngaja but stil. coz tgh emo lar ktakn. all i can do dat time was cryin. nk rsa mrah pn xleh. da feeling of cpt sdey n kuat nangis ni makin mejadi2. need 2 control it act.aihhh.. i need 2 find sumthin dat will make happy n gedix2 blk. aihh.sumthin or sum1...i need u..wa.merepek lar plak skrg nie.haha.

tension day~! due to jpj test...:(

hari yg sungguh tension. pgi2 tue abg 2 dh lar ambik lambat.i had 2 wait 4 45mins.aihh.kja aku lately asyk tnggu org jer.kira dh jdi pnyabar lar.haha.:P

pas2 bila smpai idi.kna plak tnggu lgi. 9.10am smpai idi. 11 sumthin bru start.wat a bad day act. aihh.nasib baek dpt jpj tester yg baek.haha.so aku,pas for bahagian 1 n 2. hehe.trus jdi happy day plak. so, act u hve 2 believe dat setiap kesusahan 2 act ada kesenangan dia. apa2 pn. im so glad dat i pass the test~!!wohooo~!!:P

ting, yen n me kt bukit hijau during junior;s burfday on the 14th of march. we all pegi gan choong.he drove us ther naik mercs lgi.aih. sbar jer.haha.:) we went ther wif 7cars kot. wat a day act. best gla time diaorg racing n ktaorg kt belakang sparuh nk mati.haha.tp mmg a great day lar.pity nisha cant follow us dat day.:(

wat a fun n dangerous day it is.~!!!

living in melbourne wif my aunt n her family~!!

this my current family in melburne,australia. yg tgh tunjuk her tongue together wif me is my kazen,hana.she's 4years old. so basically, if she bgun lmbt in the mornin n her dad is out she will cme into my room n wake me up. aihh. kdang2 tension gak~!!.haha. tp nk wat mcm mna she cant stand being alone by herself...stil baby lgi dia ckp~!!.hehe.perasan tul.haha. so, act i suppose 2 babysit her lar konon.tp dia nie pelik sket. dia kdang2 jer likes me n sumtimes she hates me like im her anemy.bila she hates me i get reali annoyed. tp she can b reali sweet n adorable at times. kids~!! normal lar tue..:)

the lady sittin next to me nie is my aunt. i call her alang. she's a doctor. she's studyin in hosp st vincent kt melbourne city. she's doin her subspecialist. she yg encourage me not 2 b a doc. dia kta doc kindda leceh. tp she's a doc.aihh. pelik tul. the kid yg tgh showin his teeth tue naqi,my kazen. dia nie basically likes to draw alot. everyday pas blk umah surely akn selongkar umah cari kertas.pas dh habis lukis he will leave everythin smpai bersepah.pas2 dtg lar my uncle mrah2 suruh dia kemas. n 1 thing i like abot him dat he bleh tgk korean drama wif me.yg lain cant watchin it.hehe.dey get annoyed. aihh.ssh tul.dowhh.~!!

the guy dat was holdin a camera video tue is my uncle. so, for now he's currently not workin. he's a stayin home dad. he does the laundry,cookin, fetchin up his children from skwl. so, kira evryday i stay home wif hm n hana coz hana xleh msuk kinder lgi. eventhough my aunt nk dia msuk kinder. coz kt sni dia ikut bln. she lmbt 1 month utk kira as 4years old. pity her. duk umah main gan her dad jer.aihh.pdhal she wants 2 go to kinder. the boy who's wearin da cap tue is my kazen,ajim. dia nie klu mrah tnsion tul. ska blk brg2.aihh.i hate guys baling2 brg when dey angry.aihh. n he talks alot tue. dia nie xmature lgi. ska jkin around gan adk2 dia. he's in grade 6 dis year.while naqi is in grade 2.