need to put my mind straight..

i really need to put my mind straight.. huhu. i really need to stop waking up late, in the afternoon. such a waste actually. u should always do something that is beneficial every single day rather than doing something that can increase your weight.huhu. =DD am i right?? so from now on i will always think of something ahead for tomorrow to come. thanks to my cousin who opened my eyes to this. she told me that, if you waste your days doing nothing that could contribute something to someone, or can increase your knowledge, your actually wasting your age of doing nothing. then, it came to me that im doing nothing all this while, and i can't stop the days to go by. so, it showed to me that as the day goes by, im actually getting older. obviously, i don't want to waste my valuable, can't repeat time of doing nothing. you can really see how it goes now right..

so, to all my friends out there, whose having holidays and doing nothing benefial. we should actually set some goals for these holidays that still left so that when others ask us what did we do doing our holidays, we can stand proud to say we've done something beneficial.=D

so, this is my goal to tomorrow that i would like to achieve:

1. wake up early..
2. jogging~!!
3. read novel- it has been ages since i read one.
4. think about our new house wall papers.
5. read newspaper
6. stop eating unhealthy food and alot.

really scared rite now..

if you still remember, i went to melbourne, australia after i had finished up my SPM. hurmm, and now, i might be going to gold coast and sydney. im so scared, that maybe i wouldnt get my result as i expected that it would be. i know, that i can't actually do anything right now. but i am scared. i hope, and i really hope that i would get good results for this sem. you guys don't know how it broke my heart to see my SPM results. Until now, i still can remember the pain..

hangin out wif my best budd~ =DD

we had our lunch after watching
whiteout movie

nj was showing her poker's face. =DD

love ya so mucchhh.. thanks for hanging out with me~! =DD

make me thinking.=(

you always make me thinking, ever since im in form 1 and you in form 2. you always trying to come close to me, waiting for me to come to school on the bench near our school gate. i still remembered the days that you picked up your guitar and played it to me during our conversation on the phone. i still remembered the days, that we looked at each other with a smilling face. the face that i've been longing since then. i still remembered the days, that i will try to peep at your class so that i can have a glance at your face. but then, it changed when you choosed to enter mrsm langkawi. all that change.

after that, we barely talked to each other. when i tried to call you, you were busy. so, after awhile i tried to forget you since it looks like that we really were not meant for each other,you with your own things, and me with mine. it broke my heart ever since that,because i never get the chance to say i love you to you. yes, we do things like other couple would do, but we never declared it. your so caught up trying to get so many girls to notice you until you forgotten that you've opened mine to yours.

when i've moved on, couple with other people, you would called me asking me whether its true. obviously, i would say yes. but the way you asked me, as if i've done something wrong. as if, you're asking me to wait for you. when i asked do you have one? you denied it. so, you made me felt guilty. but then, i still kept on coupling with as many people as i want.

seldomly, you will call me asking me how am i doing. but as i said, seldom. like im not that important to you. as if, im just a friend.

it touched my heart when you called me during my spm. at that time i was studying for my biology paper. i couldn't study. so many things that i needed to read and memorised. i was so stressed out, but you were there for me, giving me advised. you even told me that if i was bored and need someone to talk too, i can always call you.you even played the guitar for me to released my stressed. you were my inspiration. i got 1A for biology paper thanks to you. you really come to me on the right time. =D

after that, we became closed. closer than before, at that time i don't know the secret. but as we chatted through ym. i asked you once more, do you have a girlfriend.. you were silent for awhile. and then you replied. you said yes. but its complicated. i was so heart broken since then. i almost when out with you on that day. but i couldnt since my grandma was sicked at that time, so i needed to rush back to my aunty's house in kl. if not, i will definitely fall for you again. it showed that you and i were really not meant for each other. it really opened my eyes.

but now, this raya you wished me slamat ari rya at the last day of rya. i asked you why now, you said you definitely cant be the first because its already late, and wishing me in the middle would be clince and you prefer to be the last. i was speechless. but he was abit upset since i just said okey. he thought that i will be happy. but then i told him that i will remember it. =(.

am i pathetic? am i overeacting? for god sake, he has already has a girlfriend but he keeps doing something that i find it sweet.maybe as a friend right? who am i kidding, he's my first love. everytime he does something sweet to me, it will make me fall for him. i know that if we are destine to be together it will happen also someday. i will wait for it. but if your really not meant for me i hope i will find a better guy than you. someone who can really touches my heart and understand me. not making me wait for you.

lost in my own world~ =)

i don't know what i've been thinking lately, but ever since i entered uitm, shah alam. i've been so depressed since so many thing that had happened to me but now,i've grown up. things are getting better. im trying to be as much as positive as i could. for me, leaving in other place, really makes me more mature. so, as for now,im happy with the way i am. but im trying to be the better person that i could in the future. =D