scared, nervous, anxious.

alhamdulillah, im very happy that i get the course that i wanted. that is dentistry in UM. The thing is im scared of studying in UM. they said its tough. hurmm. im kindda a little bit sad, you used to give me good advises. i hate it when your being sarcastic. it hurts me. hurmm. you dont like me to enter UM kar? hurmm. maybe i should just learn to keep quiet and handle it on my own. if your just gonna hurt me better i just keep low, not telling you anything. what happened to all that supports that you used to give me. maybe we're grown apart. nevermind lar, im stronger than you think i am. i can do this. even if its going to kill me. i will not gonna look back and says that im regretting the choices that i have made. if others can do it why cant i? i need to recollect all those semangat, so that i can feel strong again. if your gonna cry nabila just go ahead but not to him. he will just going to make you feel worse. what a great .. i have.

these few words of mine

day by day, i try to let you go,

there're these few words that i would like to tell you,

before all of this end,

these few words that is hard to be uttered

i try to push you away

so, that i will not feel the pain anymore,

but, you keep coming back

your move, your way, your act opens my heart

that was almost closed as i,

thought it will not be opened anymore,

comforting me when i broke down in tears was the start of it again,

my heart is cursing to let you go as im scared its get worse,

day, by day my heart is yearning for,

every steps and my prayers to god is me asking to be closer to you

if we're destine to be together

one day all of this will happen

and if one day this will just be a memories

i hope it will be a wonderful one for both of us.

if you are someone thats just stopping by for awhile in my life

im so happy that you did

you always try to make me happy

as you are a cheerful and energetic person

and when i looked at you, i can feel this warm feeling of yours

your open my heart to yours,

and maybe your just someone that i need to meet in my lifetime.

we dont know whats the future going to bring us,

but, let me say it before it ends,

im really glad that i met you,

even, if it is for awhile.

xoxoxo. :)