addicted. =)

if i stand along with you, would you do the same? =). im currently addicted to this song:

your guardian angel- by The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus.


im lazy to upload it, lambat sgt nk tunggu. =).so, you guys g cari. listen to the lyrics. you might end up crying. try it. =))

where have you been?? =((

we've been friends for about a year and few months i guess. the first time we met and went out together was on the 30th Disember 2008. if you still remember. hurmm. lately, you barely even text me, and normally you will call me like every week.but, your not doing it anymore. i think i miss the calls.

i miss your whinning. i miss you telling me all your problems. i miss the stuffs we used to talk about. hey, is it me? hurmm.. am i giving you problems. i dont know what else to do.

i try to text you, but you reply mcm nk xnk je. i even tegur you in ym asking you are you angry with me. but no.. you said your not. but, that it. we stopped until there. as if we dont have anything else to say to each other. fyi, everytime you online i feel like nk tgur you but i feel like i shouldnt. i feel like im giving you problems and making you feel unease..

i like the way things are dulu.i like being the one who listen for your stories, problems, new facts. arghh. you always help me dulu. you help me with my lab and all. you even googled for me for things that i needed to know. hey, do you remember, we played rollerblade together. =)). i teach you remember? hurmm.

maybe things will not be the same macam dulu. the earth is orbitting, and so are we. we are turning to be different people i guess. you with your own stuffs and me with mine.

but, one thing for sure. when you need someone to listen, help you out, giving you opinions, make you laugh. i will always be there, thats what friends are. friends till the end. =)

im in delima..=((

arghhhh.. how? how? how to choose? arghhh. should i buy iphone? should i buy blackberry? arghh.. OMG. why is it so hard to choose a phone. i know why im being like this. hahaha. my phone slalu rosak. like every year. only GOD KNOWS.~!!.huhu. entah lar. i have this thing with gadgets. haha. im really bad in electronic stuffs.. i think im a jinx in it.haha. =)). when i think that i already make a decision of buying a blackberry bold 9700, tiba2 rase nk iphone gak. can i have both?haha. gile tamak. aduiii. =((. arghh. kn best if im rich enough to buy on my own. i will buy both.. but im not there yet. arghh. bile nk jadi doctor ni.. =)). still alot of steps to take..
apart from that, i have this thing with colours.haha. OMG~!!! arghhh.. i love love love love love iphone casing. it is so so so so so so so so so so cute... =((. arghhh..but im really scared of using iphone. kurang tahan lasak.haha. my phone slalu jatuh. so i need to buy phone yg can leh last longer abit.. xsanggup nk tukar hp stiap tahun.. =((

wondering..=)

where should i start? hurmm, my peeps that keep updating with me will know the story about things that had happened to me this past few days. maybe yesterday, i was so pissed off, humiliated, embarrassed, felt stupid, betrayed and miserable but now, im recovering.. i can even put a big smile on my face without needing to fake it. sorry u guys, i smiled fakely the other day. i was just so moody at that time. so, it was beyond my control. jawahir will know better what im facing for this past few days. but hey, as i told up there earlier, im recovering. im more stronger now.huhu. thanks you guys for all the supports and advises.i really do appreciated it. =)).

in my entire life, i never met this type of people, who can make others laugh easily and can also make others easily cry. arghhh.. nevermind, im learning to forgive you actually. like Syan said, when im angry, i tend to merepek, mncarut and even exaggerate about stuffs sometimes. thats is why i post this new entry one day after. if not.hahaha, im scared that person will feel sad.

i cannot judge you, your my new friend. maybe thats the way you treat others, just like you treat me. but there's some do's and don'ts that you have to know when you mingling with gals. you need to stop doing this sweet stuffs to gals.girls easily attracted to that. i know its my fault too. i should actually put this one barrier in front of me when im chatting, fb or do anything with you since you've told me that gals are easily fallen for you. yeah, i should do that in the first place. i know, but i didnt i guess.

and for your information, i hate that you count how many gals that had already confessed to you. OMG. please lar.who do you think you are ?do you think gals are cheap? arghhh.. and i hate you're acting cool as if you've done nothing wrong. aihh..entah lar. nak kutuk lebih2 kat dlm post ni takut u sedey plak. hurmm. for what i know, i like you since your good in making me smile. im learning to smile again without you by my side. maybe i can kutuk you in front of my friends and all, but who am i to do that? i had never met you yet pun. so, how can i kutuk you lebih2 right?

p/s: im a person that can easily forgive and forget even if it hurts. =). and seriously, im wondering that, do you have any feelings for me. haha. ntah lar. maybe we should just leave it hanging there.

humiliated, embarrass.. =(

its so like him. =)

f : dude..
m : owwhhh boyy.. i hereby giving you permission to like me.. (pheeeww)

f : cannn ( gulp) caannn i reallly likeee youuu?? but, wouldnt it feel weird and make you feel bad?
m : well, i am surprised and i do feel strange.. ( buat2 mcm cool gile..) but, its not a bad thing...

f : (tears flowing down her face..) Are you sure that you wont be troubled by me liking you??
m : gal.., i am someone that is love by numerous people. thats what i do for living.. it wont trouble me at all to let you join as a fan in one of my million fan clubs... ( muke xleh blah, bngga smcm...) That's the sort of person i am..

stop thinking ~

im constantly thinking about him lately,can i stop doing so. its really hurting me deep down inside. i even cry more often lately. why is this happening to me? is it so hard to feel being in love? i just want someone to love me.thats all, sometimes in life fancy things, branded clothes and expensive materials do not bring the same kind of happiness that you will get as in feeling in love. if i could recall it, it has been approximately two years i've been single. maybe, certain people would say, " hey, whats wrong in being single? you should have fun while it last". yeah. its nice to hear that, you can actually flirt around and all. but sampai bile? i miss being taken care off. i miss being pampered. i miss someone saying to me i love you every single day. maybe, im being insecured to wanting to feel this way. arghhh, i do envy people thats in love because i couldnt get to feel it..=(.

p/s: im a moron to love someone like you, im trying to stop here ( because i know its a good thing for both of us )

me and him.=))

the picture says it all. hahaha. dat funny annoying kiwi draw this for me tonite. aint it funny.hilarious i would say. me, as the annoying orange KENTUT at my annoying kiwi..

hahahaha. sengal gile.. and he said, he will still put a smiley face~!, so sweeeeetttt.. =P

p/s: about the dude yg i mrah in my last post was a mistake i guess. tue lar. perasaan trlebih. dats not actually meant for me.haha. so, i wouldnt have to feel guilty and sorry for that guy. =))

please don't tell me~

the other day, i've posted something about someone being unaware that i already fallen for that someone. suddenly, out of nowhere, a person that i would call it as "bestfren" ask me. is it me?arghh.. i was shocked with his action. i dont really know what to say. maybe, we are close as bf and gf but im really sorry to tell you this that i cant.. i dont feel anything. seriously, i dont. if you are awared that sometimes, you do talked about other girls. and to be franked. sikit pn xde jealousy inside my heart. i even try to give you some tips on how to tackle the gal. aihh. sbar je lar.hurmm. i also dont like you to write something in ym that you love me. please lar. i dont like it. =(

alhamdulillah~!!-

for starters i would like to praise ALLAH for what GOD has given to me. im trully bless by him. im really thankful to him for what he has given to me. he's given me a good health, good family, good friends and most of all that God never tends to forget me. im a human being. sometimes when im happy i tend to forget you, God but you will always find ways for me to come back to you. i don't really give you enough of my zikir, solat sunat and wajib and so on. even so, you always help me when im in trouble and when i just don't have the strength to move on.

thanks again~ for my results. =))

someone.. =(

arrgghh.. it is really bugging me now. hurmm. that person that i like for now is going to post something about he's special someone.hurmm. im doubting its he's mom or dad he's reffering this to. hurmm.. =(. and obviously, im doubting its me... hurmm. im really scared now. hurmm.stupid but yeah im scared now. he's going to post something that he dedicates it to whom he called it as he's "very" special someone this weekend. arghh.. i really really wanna read it so badly now. spare me with my curiosity.at least if i feel sad and miserable, it will only happen now. and i dont have to wait until he posts that thing..arghh.

p/s : im bad in waiting.. and curiosity really bites me off my ass~! =(